My fingertips misses it's partner - Guitar

All these while Im going towards my goals.
As I know they are at least at the 20% stage.

However what's the main reason for me
giving up on the Kingdom of God while pursuing
my dreams?

Im not even sensitive to the Holy Spirit voice,
not doing anything to help my spirit tag back
to God and forget thinking about God's
goodness...

How many times have I fulfill the promises I
gave to God?

How many times have the word of season grows
its roots, bulb their tiny leaves and eventually grow
to a tree?

How many times God's grace lifted me up again,
keeps reassurance me that He still trust in me,
again and again and again keeps me within His
warm, big mighty hug?

O, Lord
there are many many times you've watched me
toppled as if a baby's learning to walk

there are many many times your faith on me still
stays strong after disappointment and betrayal

there are many many times you've tried to wake
me up and communicate

O Lord,
your heart is so strong
your love is so tender
your faith is so wide

Let me goes back to the first love I had towards you
again.

Let me progress from where I am to where you
want me to be.