I am loving the nature created by God again! ♥

wanna thank God how he again saved me from worrying in difficult times.
My handphone bill and train concession was settled when im wondering what to do...
haha PTL!!

o man! how could this teacher be able to be a full-timer leactuer???
i slept during a moledule and i have my reason. im definately not that kind; came to school and wasting money! i worked the day before and was too tire and slept int the claz...so i didnt get to hear what's going on. so much so i still try my best to do my tutorial and hand in..and i still ask for help from the teacher... what irritates me is that thz Mrs. is just a selfish, inconsiderate, unhelpful lecturer. she did not help me when im in need, she just DO NOT wish or feel like explaining. O man, EVEN a part-timer lecturer has the common sense ask what happened and provide his/her service. GOSH!!! in my heart i was saying 'SHIT' to that full-time lec. she just take her big fat salaries and do her yoga and bo chap students. she don fit to be a ful-timer!
truly i was very very pissed by her! i'll definately write the feedback on her in the future.

worst; she look that kind easy to talk but her heart...nobody knows...
i think she's becoming more bias. so sad...her life becomes like this...
anyway im still happy. it's my life! :D

God bless.

came back from work n waiting for my hair to dry...
feel like writing something that has happened today.

i was worried that this sunday im not able to meet up my friends since everyone is so busy recently...i agreed to my manager to work on sunday which she asked for help..and its a bit embrasse to reject ... it lingers in my heart so i keep praying. true enough the problem was solved. the peace came back. :D that means one problem down. God is here with me. i believe this is a stepping stone to trust in him. when november comes, i will have this confident in him through all difficult times. God is good.
however in time of fear; i still need to overcome my fear and trust in him. (its 2 different things over here...)

this week im packed with events and events.
tml: study study study
wed: study attend talk in scl b.s
thur: study work
fri: study study c.g
sat: ministry ministry dinner with friends
sun: slack lunch with family work

wuhoo its simplified version. do pray for me to go through all planned schedule. let every moment be a fruitful event. thanks!!

today went for ITP talk too. its Industrial Training Programm - Attatchment. mine will starts on 12/02/2007 - 14/04/2007. gosh!!! its 2 days before my birthday and falls near to the new year!! but. but. but. im hoping for the beat out of that haha

actually now im having uncertainties in my heart. cos the future looks unstable. i will still look to God. God has my purpose of my life.

frz, cya soon. take good care
God Bless.

Im very curious who's my angel. . . haha thanks Angel if u r reading this. Can see what's your pattern by the gift u have gave me. thanks alot the pouch is very useful and has the feel of 'korean'. hmm i can say that i have quit a lot of bookmarks and i think its enough. haha anyway thanks again.

hmm there's so many things i need to plan and settle..like i have 4 tutorials on hand. and manage to push my work away. if not i think i don need to go school anymore..but God is good. He sent my father to wakes me and send me to school. Thank God for that.

Yes building fund is finally here and im also excited to give. im planning now and hope God bring me to another level with hIm. im excited! i visualise myself in the future; i will be a blessing to the church and the people. :D
hmm its time to go n rest again. i nearly have time online recently. but i will still try to blog as much as i can de. hope u, my frz, is doing well. God is good. haha recently i found that friends is appearing around me and had the chance to catch up with them. it makes me less stressful and able to fellowship which im very glad to do. Amen. God is good.

its you
you who have won my heart
taken me into your arms
comforted me like a friend
your love
surrounded me from the start
never want to be apart
from you ever again

God Bless.

soo tire....wanna go home and sleep.............................
now in library rotting away...........feels that i can maximise this time .....in a better way.....SLEEP!

feel like poning the lesson at 3pm but i've ponned for nearly 3 times???
gosh.....y it has to be so painful??
i think my brother is sleeping peacefully in his bed..yest he missed the last train and came back in the morning...haiz. he didnt work also like that...wasted so much time...feel like scolding him STUPID.

so had spent some time reading friend's blogs. some of their entry are so profound but still understandable. o ya! this morning in the train. a guy farted! man loud lo ..before i alight, saw him wiggled like a worm...gosh..i quickly alight b4 the sound came out again....fartting no wrong; it onli makes u pai sei onli. its ur body system, cannot control la but hor in the morning train lei. gosh so embrasse loh.
early in the morning met this kind of thingy..

Ecclesiastes 12: 1
Remember your Creator in the days of your youth, before the days of trouble come and the years approach when you will say, "I find no pleasure in them"-

God Bless

this morning the alarm rang. woke up and fall asleep again.
this morning my dad came home. i was distrubed and went to school. ~haha~ my dad sent me there. yeah! haha God is Good. he wakes me up and made me go to school. he sent my dad. so happi

start work at 6pm...reached there n saw a guy sat at smoking area doing his work.
so out of curosity, peaked at his work. he's doing arcitecture. anyway wanna say He has a good bodyline. haha God has given him a good body shape. really love watching his back view. so Man. <3>

he's tall, not boney. wao i wish my guy will have this kind of body shape. haha. hope my guy is not a 'gigolo' in a sense...haha cos that guy always let the gal settle the bill :p

:D
hey friends, thnks for ur accompany. it makes my day looks brighter.
take care
God bless.

i want to complain!!!
my tutorial havt finish and many more are coming on the way.
its as tall as the Swisshotel '''
tml pp will c me rushing like mad. doing like siao. and headache like bao.
i need help i say.

hmm today got home and saw 1 pair very beautiful blue ear-ring and 1 shirt.
wao~my heart was jumping with joy haha very happy to receive gift.
get to know its from my brother's girlfriend. haha very happy and really apperciate. <3
yeah~another wishlist down.

i want to see my friends this week!! miss them very much. e.g cg. usher.
nearly every week, i work and go school and didnt really give time for them.
Miss them very much. somehow i wish we can have the time to sit down in a cafe and chat
as long as we like.

take care. even im not around, i still miss you.
cya
God Bless.

i thought to myself, how Graceful and merciful am i towards a new christian?
i cant tolerent how inflexible and broken down communication in some newly converted. i said to myself, how stubborn they are... but i realised how much the people around me covered and poured their mercy and grace upon me...i was totally useless and dump when im a newly converted. i was ashamed to do things with confident but somehow God is trying to tell me; don judge. Imagine how much the people need to forgive and forget the things you've done before...
i was knocked out from my pride. and trully hopes to get forgiveness from them.

today's celeste's word somehow challened me...haha is to start learning driving. the idea that i have is that, i cant even drive if i don have a car. so the skill will be wasted if i start learning... wat she say was the learning fee will keeps on increasing every 2 years. however i think through again. so if every year will increased 2 to 5 bucks, den as i grow up, i will also gets salaries. therefore, wat's the diff if i learn later when my standard of living increases and the learning fee increases too?

today one table (customer) went offf without footing the bill and i was the last to take order ...
so e person- in-charge was me.. in theory, i need to pay the bill. and somehow this manager's word; one way or another was referring to me that i holds the responsibility. thIs really shocked me! uaually if there's shortage, the staff will divide the sum and top up the amount. however, this time round, this manager wants me to pay for all. i was upset and i felt being 'yua wang'...
nothing's wrong with the manager's but its his words that hurts people. like wat the bible say 'the tongue brings forth life or death'. Arghhh i don like him calling out my name and tell me to do things. too extreme! even in the times; i knw wat to do, he still told me! MAN! cant stand !

busy busy busy. too busy that i cant catch up my tutorials. tats bad..er not bad afterall cos i found out something new about myself. :)

hmm ok gtg since its soo early and tml need to finish my tut and work at nitz.
cya
God Bless <3>

Do you think u will look good when you cry?

how long will you cry?

Crying is a form of releasing stree to me. .when the stress tank can no longer contain, it suddenly exploded and anything can trigger the fire. . i still remember the time i received Jesus into my life; i have this sister by my side, praying for me. At that moment, i cant control myself but cried out heartly. I felt im been loved by her firm hugs. The hugs was saying ' don worry, just let go of everything '. That's the most satisfying crys i can say.

Even now and then, when my stress tank was exploding, how i wish i can have someone to be by my side and lend me the shoulder or hugs me. i think i can cry better in a healthier by having Hugs.

have you hug someone today? your hugs can heal their soul.
they can . . <3
God Bless

yea been shopping online i mean surfing around for clothes
some clothing is cheap but some are just no diff frm shops.
i saw many dresses and they look so beautiful, feel like changing my attire to dress haha
maybe wear dress for usher? >.<

hmm this month didnt work much..haiz..
my dad's and brother birthday falls at the end of this month..
tht of treating them to coffee club haha not bad rit..dad can drink coffee and still hav 15% stuff discount hahaha

keep on forgetting to bing hair pin...sian .. den hair so 'chou'
slacking ard..cya

God Bless

hAVe you showed your Love today?
hAve you stopped loving today?

don stop putting effort on others, its when you pour out the love, your life will be filled of happiness.
recently, my love tank is running very low and at the same time, my 'loving' machine has stopped its function. my world suddenly changed to black and white screen. nothing amased me or interests my attention. i cant feel any love...

so just now, i picked up the book by A.R.Bernard. The chapter talks about love. And my heart says again, 'this topic again..wat will be new?' Nevertheless, i continue on...
the FiRsT sentence captured me. It says ' Happiness means gaining an awareness of the tremendously positive power of love. ' so i kept repeating it and wanted to let it be inside of me then contiune the Next sentence. ' And if there's anyting Jesus brought into this world, it was an transformational power of love. '
i was brought back to the first time i met Jesus. it's his love meaks me feels accepted and loved like no one else would. been in church for so long, i realised somehow im moving backward from him. my vision was blurred and lose the sight of him as n when. . . the keyword in the sentences is Awareness of. its a powerful word, it pulls me back to the feeling and memories. i was reminded how Jesus loves me and it collided with today's cg sermon. Brother kenneth mentioned, God made me to love him, love myself and let him love me. God is so sweet.

LOve makes a living thing called MAn. <3
God Bless

wats thz that makes me goan
the sound of frasturation, distance me from them
wat am i today, is wat i've decided yesterday

the sound in my heart is not true
not the one i wanted though
where's the voice i've lost; since you said u'll be by my side

was the world becoming too crowed that i lost you
or i've already forgotten you

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my sis borrowed a book frm library. its abt some life theory thingy but with colourful and cute character. E.g 'Ji Mi' haha but i like this more. the author name is : V. some of their wisdom was true but to a certain extend and some how difficult to disgest. den i was sudden reminded of ' Jesus's widom is down-to-earth and simple. im glad that i have the chance to have the wisdom from God.

hmm ok Jason, u r stressing me.. i realised that its been very very Long~~ that i try to co-ordinate an outing or so...felt pressured ''' oka i try my best :E

hmm ...
10 mins ago my lesson has ended when it should end at 4pm haha happy! cos this shows that i will have more time to do my tutorials hahaha

hmm not bad ...
during break managed to finished my structure and construction tech tutorials
so nothing much i guess
recently i find shopping online is mysterious and fun. still u can buy good products at lower price!
ok go hm den continue

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this morning im so blurred tht today's first lesson at 10am, actually at 8am...in the end still late so thought might as well don go anymore..
the fact is i packed everything and really wanna go for both lessons de lo '''

after tat really sian loz. met RongPing den had mac hmm had heavy breakfast so didnt really eat much anyway... haha i realised that when i hav my breakfast, for the rest of the day, i don need to eat sia haha so happy can save 2 meals haha

after that went for hair cut at bugis hmm although i know hav my hair cut at academy will not be so fast but i never thought It will be that LONG~~~waited for 23mins den the process last 1 hour and 20 mins. haiz...all the while i was observing and taking note where the hairdresser (HD) went wrong lo ...so sian de lo when u watch the hairdresser so scare and keep on taking measurement again n again...n the hairdresser was very kua zhang. HD actually stand in front of me and half - squart and look AT MY HAIR!! i mean diao lo. o (HD's) impression had been dropped to half when washing my hair. cant wash properly, as in give a decent wash. HD actually splashed unto my face, wet my top. oka i was totally referring to HD skills ONLI.
overall is a nice person, smiley, nice and told me wat to use to cure ance. haha i think the HD looks more interested in personal skin care! cos HD's skin is so smooth and tender!

Yupz after that went for bs. wen actually gave me a nail polish, eye liner and some samples. thanks wen!! i like all of them! very useful!!

today's bs's abt the gift of wisdom and knowledge. we had practical after the 'lecture' haha (sm scl term used here). it's so fun and heart-beating, cos really need the spirit of discernment and God's wisdom. had 2 rounds and God's told me the things happened in my life right now. I believe God's trying to help me and comfirm me on that thing. I really wanna thank God for doing so. He makes me see again. :D

ok so went home straight after cos still have tutorial to do haha oka after i blog den will go n do de. i met my pri n sec scl best friend. haha so happy to see her!! den chat for a while n never forget to ask how's my hairstyle. i think beside look like 'pumkin' n 'tu', she say nice. tat's so nice of her hmm but nevertheless i wan to have reconfirmation so i asked my brother after that. den he say ok lo. ''' oka nvm, i use wat Tao Hui say, pin one side of my hair, n true enough, my face looks very much better!! haha thank U Tao Hui!!!

ok i thk today had enough heart-attack, joking.
cya
God Bless

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errr...... *COLD*****
having break rit now but the air-con is sooooo Cold sia
like forzening meat and fish~~~

hmm i like 'structure' this moledule cos its easy and the lecture is also nice!
i think soon my attantance will dropped cos due to coming late..haha
i've just checked that there's no letter of absence sent to me haha
actually recently nothing really happened lo
after school, went home and spend time with family. yesterday went to buy bread with siblings and cooked noodles and watched tv prog. haha quit nice huh so peaceful

i think my weeks will be so peaceful until sunday ba haha
cya
God Bless

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the haze is killing man
theres no moon to watch lo
theres not many pp on the street too

why the pp wan to burn e trees
why the pp still wan to burn when the haze is getting bad to worst
i think pp just don understand the haze is dangerous

i think even the brids don even feel like going out or catch e worms in the morning
cos they cant see the route
i think if the haze happened in the past
pp will go to war cos they cant watch the moon during mooncake festival
so in the end they cant resolve the problem and fight

ok im having headache due to the smoke
o man y pp r not satisfy with the smoke from factories, vehicles, burning of insence, burning of paper & waste, burning of dead pp & even the smoke from alive pp.

hmm..ok don say liao & i don nd any rebuke from anyone i don knw. its just how i think. like wat i say, this blog is a pl where i throw all my happiness, anger & stuff.

by e way today brought Ira to bugis to buy her birthday gift. er i was late for 1 week er haha hope its not too late. so shopped around with her n Ruzaina and felt so good~~ haha cos its been a long time i shopped with cash. haha yea u heard correctly cos usually is Window shopping onli. hmm ya felt more relaxed to blessed others. so in the evening went back again with Jasmine & Erin. haha i think i like bugis very much? haha yup brought gifts too. so i think for my plan, needs to hold on for a while.

cya
God Bless

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im at home now...don feel like going school...er..
morning cant wake up, too tire lei, i was totally paradized. so skipped the 10-12pm lesson.
den found out my yesterday 'hard' work was gone, so need to prepare it again. haiz~

i got my pay yesterday. it was not enough to buy what i want lo
e company still give me less than wat i suppose to have lo
i was angry sia
now i don even have e money to buy sneaker and for alteration the height. heard that will cause $100 plus.
not sure whether i still can cut my hair, treat wen and buy gifts for leaders. haiz~
should i have huge saving or just a small potion?
if i have small potion, i will not have e financial to support myself when my parents don have the money.
if i have huge saving, i will not be worry of that and at the same time, for long-term, i will saved more when the next pay comes.
ok huge saving also not that much la, juz tat there is at least hundred.

haha its really economic la. the decision will determines the outcome of the product. haha
ok i want to buy a pair of jean.
next cut my hair.
after i've clear all my debts, thithe n offering.
the next Big thing 'MUz' consider is to trest wen. buy gifts. these will crush my plans. so its really difficult to make choices. within limit budget.
i need wisdom!!!! God help me pls...

staying at home is comfortable. later got retest revision...don knw wan to go not. today was so slack. i think there's no extra brain cells for me to think of other things lei...

yeah~wanna tank my angel for the gift. its cute haha big head and it can grow grass haha
i'll call it 'potatoe' cos its in brown colour n it looks like one! haha

cya
God Bless

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this time round, the procedure for blood donation was real fast.
my 4th time to donate blood, wake up at 8.15am. suppose to meet Zhenle at 10am and we shifted back to 10.20am. ..........so sleepy haha
ate BA CHOU MEE. haha had chicken rice for yesterday lunch Yummy so miss the food opposite jurong church :E

been having regular breakfast since thz week n i thk im having enough nutritions or rather energy from food. o haha morning there's not many people around and the atmosphere was more relaxing. blood giving is good u knw, cos when u give away old blood, new blood will form.
for society, a life will be saved by your blood. not many pp r willing to give blood n ur decision really makes a difference. blood giving benefits both, so y not give it a try? :)
i was terrified by e injection at the first place but i think of how people will be blessed by my decision, i keep on encourging myself to go for it. hmm of course injection will always be painful. so i don care lo, i just scream haha don care la. pain of course scream la. haha (got keep my volume down) hahaha

after that went window shopping with Zhenle around jurong point. haha saw 1 cut white puppy; same birthday as me. haha n Zhenle say it have the same style with me too hhaha ... '''
so i was also happy waiting for my parents too. but in the end, i went over to IMM cos we r finally buying a fridge. Yeah~ i think everyone are happy abt the fridge so we brought the brand from New zealand. after that went back to JP to buy my stuff haha PTL that my wishlists are fulfilled one by one. PTL!!!

this few days had some ideas for future plans, hope that if God approved, he will opens doors for me. :)
cya again
God Bless.

o man im very full & sleepy...yonz...
had roti pranta with David n Karine at bukit gombak malay shop. i ordered a lemon lime, 2 egg, 1 plain and lastly 2 fish otak. goah~recently ate so much unhealthy food!! haha

im sooo sleepy z zz
nitz
God bless